My chest is thumping incredulously; the same feeling you get when you accidentally skip a step whilst running down a flight of stairs. A river of adrenaline floods through my veins like I've been injected with a thousand boosters of something my body can't seem to register. I want more and more of it but it's making my vision hazy and I'm starting to feel like I could melt into the air in its all-embracing warmth. I feel my chest starting to glow and a rush of heat cascades down my spine.
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In some respects this is the perfect Saturday night, but in many others, it couldn't be worse. He's affecting me in unimaginable ways and the more time I spend with him, the tighter the knot connecting the two of us is becoming. And short of cutting the knot with a pair of scissors, it's becoming so richly entwined that untangling it seems virtually impossible. Yet a big part of me won't consider untangling the mess I've created either, because despite the ultimate heartache, I couldn't be happier. I suppose that's what you call living in the moment. Or, as I like to refer to it, foolishness.
What has happened to the unabashed girl who always took the right footing? How have I given away my heart in a matter of 5 days, and why am I embarrassed to admit it?
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I hardly notice when he slips something into my pocket.
"Don't read it until you're alone" I hear him whisper. Alone. The word is like daggers to my chest, because I know it means 'without him'. And I'm scared.
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